The Value Of Understanding Your Mental Health

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It took letting my thoughts destroy my life, to learn how to use my thoughts to improve my life. Mental health is something that is very rarely talked about. It’s looked at as this big secret thing that everyone has, but no one dares to speak about.

Truthfully, it seems completely outlandish how the things that shape every single aspect of our lives — our minds, our thoughts, our emotions — are not openly talked about. I never talked about my mental health, though I was dying inside. I felt hopeless. I felt weak. I felt like giving up. And I told no one. For over 20 years, I kept everything inside. Looking back, I’d do anything to seek help earlier and get so much of my life back. A couple years ago if you told me I would be a happy and successful woman my stomach would probably churn with the thought. there is no way I’d ever amount to anything and would live my life going through the motions, completely numb.

Remembering who I once was, I now realize the importance of self-love I had none. I hated everything about myself. Now, however, I will never let any negative thought I have about myself take away from the true quality person I am. A few years ago I sat in my room crying, begging for relief from this mental warfare. During quite honestly the lowest point of my life, I had a soft, subtle, and weary triumph. I knew that I did not want to spend my life feeling like this. I had no idea what to do, but I knew I had to do something.

Little by little, I started getting better. I opened up to family and friends. I went through therapists until I found the perfect match for me, I got on medication, and I started rebuilding the very thing I’d given up on, which was myself. Today, I’ve made a platform built on the very thing that used to be what I hated most about myself, which was my mental health struggles.

This has been without a doubt the most empowering thing I’ve ever experienced. I’ve turned my weakness into strength and watched my world do a 180. It has not been easy. There are still tough days here and there, but the good finally outweighs the bad. I want people to know no matter how bad things get, the storm doesn’t last forever. Just because you feel a certain way now doesn’t mean you’ll feel that way days, weeks, months, or years from now.

You are capable of absolutely anything if you want it bad enough. I wanted nothing more than to live a fulfilling life, I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I fought for it day in and day out and I’m forever proud of myself. I am proud of myself. Years ago, that sentence is something I would have never been able to say about myself.

Brianna Amendola is a health and wellness writer. Keep up with her journey on her Instagram page @balancingwithbri. If you would like to be featured on Beauty Anthropology, please contact us today!

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